Self Image 2014

I'm Baiti. 

I'm 18 years, 3 weeks and 4 days old. 

Which means people are telling me that I am supposed to know what I want to do.

Honestly, I still can't figure out the answer . 

I'm a Muslim, a proud Muslim.

I'm a daughter.

A granddaughter.

A sister.

A friend.

A niece and cousins to many.

Many things have changed. 

Last year, I left my home, traveled 300 km, pursuing my study in A-Level Architecture. 

I've made many new friends and learned exciting new things. 

But some things still remained the same. 

I still listened to the same music. 

The same playlist I made last year. 

Birdy, Coldplay and a collection of some British Indie music.

I still loved the same TV shows and watched them countless times. 

Monk, Sherlock and Law & Order. 

I'm looking forward to Sherlock Season 3.

I'm a loving cat owner to Marble, Panda, Rocky Road and Pumpkin Pie.

I'm also a loving hamster owner which I never knew what their names are.

I'm an obsessive overthinker. 

A dreamer. 

A lover of all things classic and junk artsy stuff.

I'm a driver.

A lover of the rain.

I'm 5'2'' and still wondering if I could grow a few more inches.

I love making things. 

Making things creates more of me.

I'm an online procrastinator. 

I can spend hours scrolling Instagram feed and watch TheBrothersRiedell and SortedFood on YouTube.

I'm still an introvert and sentimental and self-conscious.

My friends and my mom are trying to convince me that I look better in any colour but black and brown.

But I can't help myself from dressing in these colour schemes.

I guess I'm not changing that this year. 

I love it. 

It made me feel who I am, what I want to be.  

The other day, I burnt my finger with a hot caramel. 

I made a Bucket List.

I want to travel the world. 

Leave something behind. 

Be a great artist. 

Bungee-jump. 

Fall in love.

Skydiving. 

Touch the snow. 

And most importantly, be happy.

My whole life I've planned what to do when I've graduated. 

I'm trying so hard to convince myself that I made the best decision in my life for the time being and for the future. 

But I'm still not convinced.

I'm trying to get here to there and having a little bit of trouble. 

I think time is getting faster. 

While I'm still a child trapped in a grown up body. 

I'm Baiti. And this is 2014 and I'm moving forward.