Thoughts.

Assalamualaykum!

Throughout my life, I've always been fascinated by things that I enjoy doing and found them worth the time spending. From reading to blogging to making plushies, DIYs projects, painting and playing with my cats and loads of other stuff as well. But the only thing that I consider giving me the ultimate pleasure and satisfaction is drawing.

Drawing is always something that has interested me since I was a little kid but I was no good at that time. I remembered throughout my primary school years, getting an A in art class was very hard. I always got B and sometimes C.

I never took it seriously back then, my passion in drawing. It only started when I was 14 years old when a very dear friend of mine, Saidatul Khairunnisa' gave me a sketchbook as a farewell gift. Not sure what to do with it, I began to scribble and doodle around the blank pages and the outcome I thought was pretty amazing at that time. I began to develop my love towards drawing. So, I searched for tutorials on YouTube on how to draw realistically. And Alhamdulillah, both of my parents were being very supportive. They bought me all the materials I need, the tutorial books and stuff. Drawing became part of my life ever since.

Some of my early portraits.

I draw a lot of things like buildings, animals, and scenery. But personally, I love drawing expressive portraits of people because they are alive and a face always shows a lot of emotions. It is more enjoyable drawing portraits because what you're drawing has a personality and so many feelings and you are actually capturing  more than just an image. The unique physical features of a human being is what fascinate me the most. How the cheekbone, the nose, the skin texture, the eyes of one's individual differs from one another. At the same time, I am able to appreciate the diversity and variations of God's most wonderful creations.

One of the elements that keeps me drawing is the blank page of a piece of paper. How it eventually transform into something that one's can appreciate and just stared at it. For me, the blankness of the paper represents the excitement and joy of drawing. The possibilities are endless and you are in control. It also amazes me how I can get something to look exactly like a real object. Like how I am able to draw the overlapping shadows, the textures of the fabric, the different tones of shades and shadows, the wrinkles and the tiny fine lines on the paper. It gets me to look closer at things and observe deeper. Drawing for me is also about making an awful lot of mistakes and satisfaction of creating something beautiful from the mistakes. There will always be "Damn, that's not what I wanted" and there's certainly "Wow, this is going somewhere". But in the end, when a drawing clicks - it is a great feeling. Generally, it takes a dozen of damns before you get to a wow.I also love how my emotion and mind indulge in the wonderful moment of drawing. It's like I'm in a completely different world.

After some time learning, these are some of the results.

For me, drawing is more than just a hobby. Drawing is a medium for me to express what I feel inside of me as I am not the kind of person that can talk to people about my feelings.  I have dedicated my life to drawing. For this reason, with the right support, I am hoping that I can go further. Insha-Allah.